I'm trying to recover from sobriety: earlier today I found the tiniest piece of foil that I thought had dope on it. Shaking, vomiting. It didn't have jack shit and now I'm dopesick all over again. I'm in my 20s, should I just kill myself? Probably not. Maybe. Probably. I'm going to anyways, but later. I should fucking kill myself.
I'm in my 20s. I've been asked to explain what I mean by 'Rape Architecture.' It feels pretty obvious, most of these buildings are shaped like penises, the ones that aren't get destroyed. We're building a sacrificial altar to indulge ourselves in rape I already know this I'm in my 20s. I'm dopesick all over again. Writing this so close to Christmas makes me wish I was eating stuffing. I'm in my 20s. I'm dopesick all over again. I had vegan stuffing and mashed potatoes and butternut squash soup for Christmas it was really good. A nice man told me he'd like to show me something he said I will love you I will take care of you I recognize him from a dream I had and acqueise the sex is worse than angels but better than the demons ive fucked it's okay his hand caresses my thin body and waist he tells me to eat more fuck off i eat enough suck my dick he sucks my dick it's okay: I'm in my 20s. I'm dopesick all over again. he picks my nose for me and he follows me all the way to my girlfriend's house he's fine with how disgusting i am and he's more disgusting. i feel revolted when i have sex with him but it's a good way to pass the time his hand caresses my thin body and waist he tells me to eat more he tells me he will take care of me and feed me well he says he'd like to record me i dont want to oblige but the camera is already there so what the hell. my ex once scoffed at the idea that i'd hate being watched, she apologized after but i keep thinking about that as he films the skin of his cock rubbing against the skin of my asshole
Later today I found the tiniest piece of foil that I thought had dope on it shaking vomiting it didn't have jack shit and now im dopesick all over again im in my 20s should i just kill myself? now is later, later is later. im not going to kill myself but someone is going to be there to film my death. That's okay, maybe I'll get royalties in hell.
I'm in my 20s. I'm dopesick all over again.